So this year is going by pretty fast actually. I can't believe it's already November! Anyway, me and my "best friend" Jenn got in a fight a week or so ago. Wanna know what it's about? It's really stupid. A few Sundays ago, I hung out with my other friend, Krista. Last year, Krista and I had gotten into a little fight, and we did not talk at all over the summer. However, this year Krista and I began talking again and we've become friends again. Well, Jenn does NOT like Krista at all because of that fight over the summer.

When Jenn found out I waswith Krista on that Sunday, she flipped out on me. I really didn't think that I was doing anything wrong, because really, I wasn't. Jenn, for the past year, has been trying to control my life. Here are some examples of that: I have other friends. Jenn does not. Whenever I talk to my other friends Jenn gets mad and walks away. I am not allowed to like something that Jenn does not like for instance, Family Guy, anime etc. Jenn gets mad at me whenever I talk about something that doesn't have to do with her, and many more ways. So when Jenn stopped talking to me for a while, I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders. I know longer had to carry her burdens.

After Jenn refused to talk to me for a while due to the whole Krista thing, I began hanging out with my other friends, Kaitlyn, Amelia etc. I actually felt equal to them. I wasn't talked down to, I wasn't expected to drop my life and work on a problem. I was invited out to lunch with them on a Tuesday after school. We went to a Japanese hot pot type place and it was the most fun I had in a while. We were all laughing, talking and just having a good time, no drama at all. Ever since that day we've all become close. A few days after that, Jenn texted me.

She said that she "really missed me" and shouldn't of gotten mad but she was scared that I would leave her for Krista and that I should go back to her because she's lonely. I couldn't believe what I had read. Lonely? How is she lonely? She has a boyfriend who she controls as well, probably worse than she controlled me. I was torn. I was so happy that I wasn't best friends with Jenn anymore, but at the same time I felt bad that she missed me and missed my friendship. I told her how what she did to me made me feel, but she didn't seem to quite understand.

Jenn creates drama that I don't want to deal with, I mean who does? My other friends are so carefree and we always have something to laugh at. I really, didn't want to go back to Jenn. I told her that we can still be friends, but I didn't know if things would go back to the way they were before. In a way, I feel like Jenn wants me to feel bad for her...she wants EVERYONE to feel bad for her. She always has some sob story to share to others, and they always reply to her with "awww I'm sorry for you." She craves it. Plus, she's an only child...not that I'm saying only children are like this but, it definatley contributes to her selfishness.

Anyway, I'm done with my ranting. I just wanted to get it out.


--Friends!!--





R.I.P Tiny Tim & Ivan...the world's best guinea pig and hamster. I'll love you and miss you both forever.